I run once in a while. Everything is fine, but it's not, it isn't like that right now (Robert Post)

Don't know what I'm doin' here. Why is everything so complicated? Two people are in love with each other, but a fucking belief make them spliting up. What the Hell is the meaning of all those feelings that are floating inside me? I love him and it's impossible, so give up thinking about this story. I've got enough problem now without an "man" who doesn't know who he is, what he wants and who can't bare his responsabilities in being himself. Everything would certainly have been easier if I had known the whole thing since the beginning. But no, mister decided to change his orientation and to tell another version he was giving before. Thank you tadepole! Argh, why did I have a crush like that ?

Now I want us to be mate for a while, 'cause I'm not able to tell you a real goodbye for the moment. But stop acting like you do. When I'm here you become strange, don't know how to behave and so one. Just give up, it's ridiculous, we both understood that we are suffering, but all this mess doesn't help anybody. Be yourself, 'cause even if we're not together anymore, I liked the person you were, and now I can't recognize you. I don't wanna be in your mind, but I'm asking myself what a fuck are you doin'??? I will probably never know, 'cause it's no more my role to worry about how you feel and why you are doin' a thing instead of anoter.

In the end, I'm fed up with this pitiful tragedy. Stop it. I love you, and I know you're still keen on me, but we both are aware of the impossibility in being together. And I'm thinking that if it's so hard for us to see each other, we'd better let it down and follow our own way without the other by our side...

Hope I will not write about you so many time, but for the moment, it's necessary for me. I have to dig the grave of our drama to be able of going far from this cemetery of culpability, doubts, loneliness, questions without answers and from you...

Take care (even if it's none of my work to tell you this!)